If you don't exercise your muscles they will wither, but don't forget; Your heart is a muscle too..

So this post title kinda has a double meaning both fitness and emotional/lolita related.

Fist of all to get the fitness related out of the way~

I ran 6k yesterday! (that's almost 4 miles) When I was younger I couldn't even bike half that path (it used to be my way to school) without feeling exhausted. I also remember having trouble to run like 1k without stopping!

This time I ran all the way and even had enough power to pick up the pace the last 5min. I did this the day after coming home from a con, and I'm still exhausted, I can't tell you how proud I am of myself. Trying for 7k next time and we'll see what happens.

I believe that it's really important to do some kind of cardio with your workout schedule. I never do it on the same day though because I believe I will not be able to give it my all when I do the second workout for that day. Lifting makes my bones strong, but my running has really made my heart so much stronger and it makes me feel great!

I'm also starting to lose weight for the first time since.. forever?! No seriously, I can't remember. I've been hovering at 60-62kg for probably like 6 ish months now. Before this weekend I started slooowly going down past 60 and I'm now at 58.5. I just hope it's fat and not muscle! But my scale also says that my bf% has gone down.

Now then on to lolita and emotional business!

So as mentioned before I went to a con this weekend. I was a volunteer for the wardrobe where visitors could leave their bags, valuables and other things during the days.

Lets start out with some lolis~

They are all such adorable girls <3 I wish I could rock AP like them <3

Cosplayers:

Waa Sailor Moon <3

Glados~

*See sword* Holy! Clare <3

My friend did Bridget lol, props for making it all by himself, and his first cosplay too I believe!

<3 I asked him if he was from Hetalia, I can't believe people bought it!

Gotta love Kuragehime <3 I'm impressed <3

Misc:

Me and my burger, delicious, Veggie burger with bacon.. yes people gave me weird glances! I had 3 of these throughout the con.. wonderful!

One of the artist alley tables, so much cute stuff! I hate saving sometimes!

Another table with gorgeous loli wear and dollie wear as well. Dresses were too short for me though, and again.. monies..

Her art was so varied and gorgeous! I'm so impressed still!

Cookie Monster does not like to swim!

Uhrm... yes.. shows off my bonnet?

My friend took some photos with me, all for fun, hoping to get some pictures to post here in a bit~

My outfit for Saturday, barefoot and comfortable, I love this dress but it's hard to find an opportunity to use it.

Someone left a Geodude in the wardrobe.. I-I just had too, it's fantastic!

Chuu from Chuu <3 Yup, I was really happy!

Now then, lets get emotional?!

A lot of lolis have troubles with relatives and most of the time parents who aren't supportive of our clothing.

I consider myself lucky when I say that has never really been an issue for me.

My dad joked around back when I dressed in sweet, saying that my shoes look like clown shoes, I laughed with him and saw no harm in it. 

My parents have always shown interest and it's very sweet of them and when I wore my VM sailor coat back in May my dad even commented on how good I looked in it! 

It feels great to receive that kind of appreciation from your parents!

Now then, this topic will be devoted to my fathers mother.

I really feel that I need to get this off my chest because it saddens and angers me so much.

Back in the beginning of the year when the topic of my style arose she started hinting that she liked me better in normal clothes, which she also mentioned when Vincent and I came over for lunch.

I'm fine with people telling me this, whatever it's not a big deal.

Back in May when I changed my profile picture on facebook to one of my lolita pictures she commented and said I should wear my normal clothes instead.

Again, I'm fine with this, whatever, not a big deal.

She has also discussed the issue with my mother, who just shakes her head. They don't particularly care if I dress up or not, I'm sensible about it and always ask them if it's okay if it's a special occasion, hey my parents where okay with me wearing lolita (classic) to my grandmothers funeral (something I deeply appreciated).

Now then, this weekend I brought out the lolita again, after all I'm at a con having fun with my friends, what's the harm?

One of my friends had a gun that I borrowed first for a photo in the hallway, I posted this on facebook.

My friends thought it was awesome, however my fathers mother posted saying "Grow up Vanessa!!!!!!!!!"

It pissed me off, but worse was yet to come. 

Later that day my had a photoshoot with me (as I posted above). Most pics were with another friends camera but we took some with mine just to document it, again with the gun.

I had a lot of fun with this since it is totally out of character for a lolita and we had a great setting.

Now my fathers mother was not. I posted this exact picture to facebook a bit later, receiving this comment:

"This is by far the ugliest picture I have ever seen, bloody hell/ *insert other generic swearword*" (translating swearwords from Swedish is hard).

You can guess how pissed I got after reading this, I deleted both this comment and the previous one, reported both for harassment and blocked her from my facebook.

I really never had an issue with my fathers mother, but to push so much hate on your grandchild like that is just unbelievably mean. I'll never say a bad word to anyone online that I couldn't say IRL and here a relative goes out and says that she thinks a picture of me is the ugliest she has ever seen? I am baffled and shocked.

Am I over reacting? I don't see how she could make this well again, what on earth was she thinking?

Have you had any similar experiences?

Now I am not sad at all, but I am angry and it pesters my mind. 

I try my best to be nice to everyone and spread my heart, because everyone needs love but no one needs hate. If I don't spread love and use my heart I will become a hateful person, and no one would benefit from that.

So please, readers, spread the love, and keep your family and friends close.